this is completely crazy. Idk why but just feel like going for a comeback to blogger. it creates history here. and all the long archives of the past. and although currently, I have other blog accounts like onsugar&tumblr & tweets on-the-go, I still find blogger pretty much easier with edits since i somewhat alrd knew how to use the htmls. tsk.
Well, i guess no one gna reads my blog now, since its been months left unupdated. - got such word not? :D
on a random note, i've been missing many ppl lately. sometimes whenever life is just so screwed up, don't bother finding me. worthless. Sometimes i don't even knw whether i should just leave but that mutual love just holds me back. oh crap.
sch's tmr early morn. and recently i've been caught up with so much things i only slept at 4am, which is bad. :( currently school's schedule's pretty flexible since its only practicals and make up classes(optional) which leaves me mostly on my own :D
a month before my orals. and i'm super unprepared. :S
so many things just screws up but on a lighter note, i'm really pleased with my sciences. hopefully the miracle of jumping of D7 to A1 is possible. Amin.
Maths, although it isnt my forte, i was left with no choice but make it as a discipline to scrape this 2nd chance through. There's no turning back. I had to win this time. a MUST.
gna wait till this transfer is complete. I wouldn't want to lose my memories no more.
:D
i had to lie. i'm sry.
just a small lie.
stuckwithepast.
DREAMS
Thursday, May 20, 2010 |12:53 PM
Dream give us something to hope for,to aspire towards.Without dreams,we become cynical and give up on life. Remember when u were a child n u had that dream of becoming someone or attaining soomething. Hold onto that child-like hope,it will keep u alive.
i believe dreams are important in sustaining the flame of hope in our hearts. Dreams sometimes serve to will us on tu fulfil our ambitions when the circumstances around us leave a lot to be desired. Hence one must never lose faith in Allah no matter what,working hard abt our dreams plus nt just dream n plan,we need to summon up the courage to take the risk to follow our plan in order to pursue our dreams.
Dreams can certainly come true..if we keep faith in Allah swt and work hard, then dreams indeed can manifest into reality..
-quoted frm Syaraf's status :D
stuckwithepast.
simply.
Sunday, April 04, 2010 |12:00 AM
its April. time flies really fast. and this year i don't find any significance to fill these entries in the virtual world. just wants to get this year get over and done with before starting afresh next year, hopefully in NP/SP (: Certain things just couldn't be bothered and I really don't understand why certain things people likes to talk about the bad side in the past? either tries to make me blow my top to remind me of the past or simply testing my patience. oh wells. some kaypohs ppl just seem to be so kpo taking care of other ppl's business. that event, although its the past it still lingers but they'll shall see i'll be better in the future. It's either I forgive and forget or i simply dont and Im simply too lazy to hold a grudge on that someone till today.
a waste of my time. I rather fill my entries with memories best cherished with. like today. (:
till then.
stuckwithepast.
love.
Friday, March 05, 2010 |12:42 AM
Its been like ages since I last updated. Where should I start huh? So many things happen in such a short time and now its March, i've abandon this cyber diary of mine for a month +?? haha. who will ever bothers. :)
anyhoos, school started pretty well this week :D March 1st :) oh boy, he caught my eye. and the great thing is it took me awhile to notice his presence and it happens twice this week even today! surprisingly. yes. weird huh.. ahh, undescrible. he's full of surprises. :) (sry dude. tk prasan. haha.)
today's tutorial with grp 1 was pretty kecohh laa.. Full of emotions. full of dramas. one of those tutorials in history. haha. ahh, memories. :)
went homie with kavitha and hafizah. and Im gna say that everything in Yishun is waayy better than in Pasir Ris laa.. haha, it completes everything. the facilities and all.
and Tmr most probably going back to Lyss. the so long missed 2nd home. haha.
aites.
toodles~
till i have the time again :D
stuckwithepast.
blessed
Monday, January 18, 2010 |11:24 PM
I feel blessed with the wonderful people who always be by my side,
fill this empty heart
whenever you weren't here.
when you weren't there, I wished you could be stronger.
I just missed everything being with you.
as I flipped through the picture album
and all the things that we had went through..
this silence, I always prayed you'll be alrite.
or maybe I'm just too sensitive.
but I guess I've explained enough
how much I missed you.
:)
I'll make a change.
I'll be stronger than what you imagine.
a change in what I failed and succeed.
you are right, there's a need for change.
attitude, faith, everything.
and insyallah I will.
I'm determined to succeed.
you are right all this while.
thanks for the advice yeah..
I'll change myself.
you'll see the new me.
stuckwithepast.
smile :D
Tuesday, January 12, 2010 |12:34 AM
as much as it hurts, as much as how this tear sheds, I'll forget the past.
thanks to all the loved ones who's always be there for me.
and sorry, I'm not the best to be entrusted with all the hopes and dreams.
thanks dear uncle for your understanding and advice.
and 'aunt' too. and everyone else's
and dearest, syg..
when the world is falling apart..
and everyone started blaming on you.
with all the why's
and asking how was it..
sry for not replying.
and make a clearer view of things with mom
and taken into things into a different perspective.
As much as I know how much you all cared,
as much as how hard to say 'I Love You'
despite how badly I did, even how much disappointed you had.
the pressure that you all gave,
and how much it affects me the most to be disappointed
and being blamed at and never seeing the endless efforts I put in..
thankgod, they finally understands that everyone have their own strengths and weaknesses.
each individual are different and unique in a certain way.
into private school and retaking maths and sciences.
Just couldn't believe how dreams could depict the future.
isn't it better if good dreams become reality than having bad dreams?
and even if its costly, i'll wont make it gone to waste again.
maybe its just wasnt my luck, or just the stupid bellcurve.
9more months to Os. haha.
how great.
need to start the engines working.
and prove everyone wrong.
from failure to a success.
A2-A1 possible?
maybe malay too, a b3 again just felt sucky.
where's the A1 that I wanted?
pretty pleased with Art. a distinction was rather shocking cos the 3wks of preparatory work in Oct was the disasterous prep. work I ever had due to lack of time, maybe coursework of the masks pulled me up.
comb. humans, wishing it to be better, but i guess lets just stick to B4. or maybe I should. we'll see how.
English, one word. pathetic. Life's unfair. Maybe its not worth working hard for it. gone those distinctions. they say I should have got better. considering retaking it? hmms..
P.Hist, similar to Prelims. ahh, the results are somewhat the same. maybe not.
haiz.
how i wished i had a dream, the power to foresee the future, and see how life could be in the future..
and make the best of it.
it could be both.
tears of joy and tears of disappointment.
but more to the d's.
smile :D
stuckwithepast.
matter of time
Sunday, January 10, 2010 |11:26 PM
its just the matter of time that every truth longed awaited is revealed.
typical crossroads.
in a few more hours shall it revealed
its deepest secrets.
...
..
.
stuckwithepast.
thoughts
|12:14 AM
sometimes, there's a point of time when you had to be on your own.
be independent, not dependent.
cos they won't be be there forever.
...
..
.
c'mon you have to be strong.
don't let the imaginations runs wild.
critics, vengeance of the past..
turn back the clock.
bad dreams, somewhat made me stronger.
if you could put up a stage, I could too.
so don't mess with me.
I wouldn't tolerate any of your nonsense false accusations.
as much as dreams depict it the other way..
i'll make it into a reality.
making sure I finally got this vengeance back on you,
get a taste of your very own medicine.
cos somewhat I don't forgive and forget that easily
whatever you had done,
spoil my day with the bad memories of the past.
...
..
.
make the time past slowly,
let the secs be mins and mins be hours..
hours be days.
days be months,
months be years.
endless years..
can we just skip the
'results' part?
skip MONDAY, 11Jan 2010.
skip 2pm onwards.
let morning just turns to night.
let them forget its that day.
sleepless nights~
stuckwithepast.
